I’ve cried about this quite a lot recently, it’s an ending I never wanted to happen. But as of this weekend I am closing my shop forever (or at least for a very long time). It’s gotten to the point where I just can’t give it as much love and attention as I want which means it isn’t growing as much I want either. Working full-time, long commutes and with the winter ahead there’s just not enough time for me to work on my shop. For most of the year my evenings or weekends are consumed by packaging up items or scheduling tweets, tax returns and other admin stuff, rather than designing new things.
The parts I like about running an online shop are the designing and drawing, which I currently have no time for. I’d rather close the shop now, happy with my success and maybe sometime next year I’ll start another little bit on the side aka perhaps an online shop for something else. But at this moment in time it’s just sort of time wasting.
I’m a very busy person and I have always enjoyed being busy. I have never been the sort of person to sit down and watch television, without a laptop or a phone or something else to do. It’s just never interested me. However since closing my shop in August for the relaunch, I’ve had 2 months of making products and also just enjoying spending more time outside, chilling with friends or even just spending a day in bed reading a book. It’s so underated and something I never really appreciated until now. So frequently I would say ‘oh no I can’t come sorry I’m busy’ aka packaging up orders/getting stuff done. My shop was never going to be my full-time job without putting in more hours, and I can’t give it the extra hours required. Therefore I’m wasting my time and missing out on so many opportunities.
I’ve been quite unhappy recently, with so much going on it’s been really nice not having the pressure of ensuring I package up orders and send them out. If I go away for a weekend I know I need a morning off work to package up and send, or if I’m away for the weekend I have a little panic. I don’t work near a post office which means I really do struggle to post things, having to start work early to finish early to send things. It’s all work and no play (play being the fun happy designing part). I love drawing and making things, I will still carry on doing this – just without selling them or finding them homes.
I’m so thankful for every customer I’ve ever had. I’m also so thankful for my parents, spending their Christmas and Easter holidays packaging up the box of lame.
Maybe I’ll relaunch a shop in the future called ‘A Little Amber’ but it isn’t going to be this year. Instead I’m spending the rest of the year working on myself, spending more time at the gym, more time with friends and family and enjoying my time outside of work as much as possible.
So, for now, I’m simply a blogger without an online shop *cries*.